The Balance

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"So can we learn to forgive? I wanna hold you again."

- Saves the Day

I. Somehow You Love Me

My heart is gone
It drove to the shore
Swam out in the night
Way out pass the lines
I heard that now 
It lives in the south 
Of west central Spain 
Drinking off the pain
‘Cause inside I’m broke 
I’m cracked, I’m alone
No hope for a change
No way to erase
The world would be 
Better without me
So how could this be?
Somehow you love me


II. Fucked Up Past The Point Of Fixing

Stepped out to see the stars fall alone on the neighbors lawn.
I held my hand on my head down waiting to hear your call.
I thought I saw your headlights in the dark driving by our house.

I’m going out my mind.
I’m giving up the fight this time.
Love me or let go, no longer care if I die alone. 

Whole world is waiting, watching to see when you’re gonna fall.
Ten thousand faces staring, your back is against a wall.
Fucked up pass the point of fixing, so tell me what went wrong.

I’m going out my mind.
I’m giving up the fight this time.
Love me or let go, no longer care if I die alone. 

'Cause in the darkness of my mind I used to dream of suicide.
I’m gonna pull myself out before I die.

I’m going out my mind.
I’m giving up the fight this time.
Love me or let go, no longer care if I die alone.


III. 8 AM

Now it’s eight in the morning, 
Up all night just walking around.
I’m hiding out here under the window 
By the sink where we used to laugh all day long.

I wait till I see you walking 
From the bedroom down to the kitchen.
Fingering your hair into curls while talking 
On the phone resting on your collarbone.

Here I come again, head is hanging low.
You put down the phone, take me in your arms.
And I’m all alone, with you, my love.
Did you hear me coming?

Running over the words I said last night
While wishing I never saw your eyes 
Swell up with tears dripping down your thighs.
I can’t let it go, I’m lost inside.

I can get so low.
Seems like there’s no up and I’m all alone
So take me in your arms knowing I’m the one.


IV. Zig Zag

I turn around to say how could you still love me. 
Sun is shining, lighting up your face.
You stare off into space not knowing what to say.
Searching for the words to set things straight so I say…

I’m a Zig Zag sideways, upside down, out of my mind
What’s the point of living if were all just born to die.
You say why? Why ask why?

I say “I get fucked up.”
You say “delusional.”
Somehow will you still open your arms?

"Come with me" you say, we step outside to face the sun
Yesterday I dream that it would all burn down to dust.


V. Daybreak

Take a breath, turn around.
See the sun come through the clouds
The light alive in your eyes.
Standing here by your side 
On an arm under the sky.
I know I want to hold on.

The letters left on the lawn.
The shadows crawling the wall.
The mirror shatters and falls.

I’ve been lost for so long, 
No more will to carry on.
So dark and dead and diseased.
Nothing left in the end 
And to pray is to pretend.
I’m tired of trying to believe.

So can we learn to forgive?
I wanna hold you again.
Can we remember our love?

I can get so low.
Seems like there’s no up and I’m all alone
So take me in your arms knowing I’m the one

z

Please understand that you’ve had every chance.
You’ve had all the time, all the time in the world.

You don’t listen
(You don’t listen to me)
(Darling come home)

"This body’s not a temple, it’s a prison."

- The Dear Hunter

"

It might not be the right time
I might not be the right one
But there’s something about us I want to say
Cause there’s something between us anyway
I might not be the right one
It might not be the right time
But there’s something about us I’ve got to do
Some kind of secret I will share with you

I need you more than anything in my life
I want you more than anything in my life
I’ll miss you more than anyone in my life.
I love you more than anyone in my life.

"

- Daft Punk

"Been wondering if you’re heart’s still open and if so I wanna know what time it shuts."

- The Arctic Monkeys

nevver:

Noir Vol. 2, Marko Manev

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northwestwade:

Oh my god

I’ve watched this 3-second clip like eighteen times 

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"Even if you’d never stray from me I’d question your fidelity. There’d always be a shroud of suspicion and my hearts a liability. With your hands maroon so freshly red. Your wrap your lips around my neck. Try and force to love the thought of me. Simple motions make me ill."

- The Dear Hunter

I tried to sell my soul a million times
But never got an offer
No never heard a word returned out of the dark
Where I would throw my voice

Maybe I just haven’t got the goods
Or maybe I’ve forgotten the way to find that piece of me that’s buried down below
But I hope that we can find it
Yeah hope that we can find it
Yeah hope that I can get back to the way I was
Back before we knew what I’d become
I know everything is a mess
But with a steady hand I can fix myself
I’m on the mend

I tried to give you all I had to give
But you just wouldn’t take it
No you wouldn’t hear the words I cried out in the dark
‘Cause you had turned away

So maybe I still haven’t got the goods
Or maybe you’ve forgotten
The way to see the piece of me that’s buried down below
But I hope that you can find it

Yeah I hope that we can find it
Yeah I hope that we can find it
I hope that I can get back to the way I was
Back before we knew what I’d become
(But I hope that you can find it)
Get back to the way I was
Back before we knew what I’d become

When it rains

It’s that old saying, “when it rains, it pours.”

It is a saying that pretty much means that when things go bad it will only get worse. It’s been building up for some time now and finally everything in my life seems to have fallen apart.

I had to get a second job just to keep up with rent and gas money. The main job I have is losing a handful of people because they all realized that our commission structure is garbage. Every moment in that building sucks the soul out of me. Not only that but now that I work 7 days a week I have no time to relax, clean or spend time with my girlfriend.

Then there is the girlfriend. She is the light in my life. The one person that I can’t wait to see. Especially after a long day working with hostile people. She centers me. And last night I lost her too.

I walked myself to the bus stop today and to no fault of my own I partially thought of how easy it would be to just end my life. But that’s not an option now is it? Now I’m sitting here waiting for a bus. A bus that was supposed to be here 20 minutes ago. Yet its a holiday. So it may never come.

Sometimes it would be so easy to just give up.

The worst is yet to come.
As lonely and sad as I’ll get I will have to remind myself that it’s what she wants.
It’s time to erase the photos
Shred the memories.
Start new.
Alone again.
Alone as always.